The World's 'I Can't' vs. Christ's 'I Won't'

The flesh is weak. And so, we end up thinking, and saying things like:

I CAN'T get rid of this porn addiction.
I CAN't get over this drug problem.
I CAN'T get over this depression, or pain, or illness, or miscommunication, or my lying habits.

By choosing Christ, instead we have a willing spirit. And through Christ we can faithfully say:

I WON'T let this addiction take over my thoughts and mind.
I WON'T let drugs control my life.
I WON'T let depression take away my joy, for CHRIST is my Joy and He has OVERCOME.

Take heart. Let your fleshly 'I can't' become your spiritual 'I won't'.

Better Things

Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together.

But what if I don't want them to fall apart?

You know that little picture floating around facebook? A little girl is holding her precious, dearly loved teddy bear in a strong embrace looking up to Jesus sadly saying "but I love my teddy bear LORD..." What she doesn't realize is that Jesus has a bigger, fluffier, cuddlier teddy bear for his little daughter.

How true is this picture. We, as humans, when we find something that we are comfortable with don't ever want to let go of that thing because we feel like it keeps us together, or it's too precious, or it's the only thing making us happy. In reality, Jesus, who knows our future and life better than we could ever begin to imagine, has something in store for us that is better.

Don't be discouraged when a relationship, a house, a job opportunity, or anything of the sort falls through. God knows what he's doing. Keep your faith. Keep trudging up that hill. You may not understand now, but as soon as you clear that ridge and look over the horizon you'll see why those temporary things had to fall apart, so the better things could fall together.

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” Jeremiah 29:11 “Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.” Psalm 37:5

My Boyfriend! Wait, where's God?

Yes, I have a boyfriend.

His name is Michael. I call him The Doctor. We connected over our love for Doctor Who. xD And then I got to know him better and better, and God was showing me that he was the type of man I should be looking for in a boyfriend/future husband. Michael's first love? Jesus. He loves God with his whole heart, AND he likes Doctor Who? Uh, yes please.

But in all seriousness, the Lord has decided to take this new chapter of my life to teach me a few things.

So, I drove home from church today, and I just started praying as I was driving. I was enjoying the beautiful country road complete with green grass, rolling hills, and a setting sun over the becautiful Rocky Mountains. I thanked the Lord for everything He had made and for my eyes, that I could see the grandeur. And then, I started praying for and about Michael. I started praying about connecting with him more, learning to cherish him more, and about becoming his best friend more and more. In response, God laid some stuff on my heart:

1) I need to be seeking Him as my best friend first...Put more clearly, before seeking to be Michael's best friend, I need to be seeking the Lord Jesus as my best friend first. This was a big "HEY!" moment for me. I need to be talking to God about the important and non-important things, and I need to be reading His word so He can talk to me; just like best friends.

2) I need to have God be the most important thing in my life, that means He needs to be even more important than Michael. Now you might be thinking, "Hannah! Hah! That's a given. I mean seriously, how could Michael even be close to the most important thing, before God?" You know what, I would probably be saying the exact same thing as you if it was before I started dating Michael. The thing you are going to realize, the thing you need to WATCH OUT for, is that when you get a boyfirend, or a girlfriend, and even when you're married; your significant other starts to become something so special to you that it's EASY to place them on a pedastal. But today, God was warning/whispering to me about this fact.

I think about Michael a lot, my brain is always on him. But what if I had God on my mind like that? What if I was thinking about God; how I could better serve Him, or how I could better please Him. I'd be doing a lot more stuff for the Lord, if my thoughts were constantly on Him.

In conclusion, I'm very thankful for Michael. I'm thankful for his love for Christ, and his heart to serve God. And I'm thankful that Jesus has put him in my life. But more importantly I'm thankful for his Creator. I dont deserve Christ, yet He is there every second of the day for me. The question is: am I there for him? Am I putting Him first? Is He my best friend? 'Cause ultimately, He's the one who put me here, and He's the one who cares about me the most. :)